Back in 12th grade I was supposed to read Dostoevsky's
Crime and Punishment. I think I read about a third of it. But, I'm reading it for real this time. I like it so far. I find myself among the millions of people who find a way to identify with Raskolnikov (the book's main character; If you haven't read the book, you can skip this, whatevs). For one, he thinks too much. But more specifically, he brings up these philosophical points, repeatedly, regarding decision, and thought versus action. Boy, this is going to get vague really quick. Listening to Cap'n Jazz while I write isn't helping. Anyway. And, I'm too lazy too pull out the book and look for quotes. What am I trying to say? Well, no... screw this.
Next paragraph! The way that characters in the book seem to sustain themselves on tea and black bread and soup really brings out the ascetic in me. The idea of being really hungry, and some shitty bread and second-brew tea giving you that blood sugar rush to the head that lets you know you'll feel much better soon: I like that. It's in stark contrast to this lifestyle I am in/need-to-get-out-of... too much disposable income, spent on coffee here, a cookie there, eating out for lunch repeatedly, all the while dwelling in the post-undergrad debt hole. What little willpower! The death of defiance. Acquiescence. The onset of adult-loss-of-mind (nod to Samuel). How weird. I don't think Dostoevsky intended that part that I take from the book. But I also really like the whole thought versus action and decision stuff. You know.
Beck's coming out with a new album next month, "Guero". So, of course I downloaded some songs off ye olde file-sharing network (hey I'll probably buy it! I own all of his other albums..). They're pretty good, very Odelay. Here's what I can't settle in my head: his Scientology connection/belief/what-have-you. It weirds me out. Maybe I've been reading too much
Operation Clambake, but I listen to his newer songs now and I picture him as a brainwashed man with good style. That made no sense. I don't like thinking that buying his album will promote the spread of a wacko cult.
This entry is worthless. And it's not even about San Francisco! I'm going to see Amon Tobin at Bimbo's in a week. In San Francisco. There.